L.A.X

I was never a big fan of The Game, but I listened to his new album and I must say I'm impressed.

Obama '08

This had me teary eyed. Especially when he touched the topic of affording college. I think it is time for change. "We Don't need four more of the last eight years"


OBAAAAAAAAAAAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Never Ending Story

I know you've heard it before, "people don't change unless they want to change". It's the damn truth, I have to come to terms with that. No matter how loud you yell, how many times you threaten to break up with someone, no matter how many times they say they're going to change. The fact is your mouth isn't strong enough to make them move. If someone keeps constantly doing the same shit, it should be a sign for most to leave...but it's not for me. And that's my problem.

I've changed my life, at first I thought it was for the better. No more drugs and liquor to stir my mind away from reality. But I've become someone I used to be. Someone I thought would never come back. The girl who has everything going for her but can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can't blame anyone but myself. I've pushed my friends away, I don't even know who they are anymore. The last of their words strike me like a flame, a constant reminder that I fucked up.

It's hard for me to even write this. I'm fighting the truth with what I want it to be, and not taking it for what it is. I'll get back to you on this one.

What Happened To Acting Like A Lady?

I'm tired of females saying they don't associate with other females. Posting things like "Fuck Bitches" BITCH, you are a BITCH. Women need to stop the negativity towards other females. I had my moment, It's not easy to have female relationships but it's not impossible you just need to associate with the right people. Not these childish females, trying to feed off who the next person they are going to "wash". Men are just as grimy as females. So for a female to say they only associate with guys, is stupid. For females to bring other females down, thats a fucking joke. Don't you realize that there are a shitload of men who love to do just that. (I'm not down talking men either). You expect to live your lives around males forever? Your not one, and acting like a male is not cute nor a better way to live or act. What ever happened to just acting like a lady? Females trying to grab their crotch in pictures when theres no dick there or talk about snuffing guys, GOD!

ACT LIKE A LADY, YOUR NOT A MAN.

"Are You Fucking Kidding Me?"

This disgusts me. How can someone say Hitler was a great man who did great things. Hitler wanted to exterminate practically EVERYONE, including black people. He was a racist and hypocrite, like the man in the video. One of the most ignorant things I've watched in a while.

How stupid is this man?

Celibacy

I'm tired of sex, Honestly it complicates everything. I had previously stopped having sex for a while because I was misconstruing love with the physical aspect of sex. Having sex with someone doesn't mean you love them more or less. I'm tired of sex, don't get me wrong...it's fun, you catch a great feeling for the time. But what do I gain after sex? Not a damn thing. If anything sex won't bring me closer to a person. It doesn't separate any of my relationships past or present. I need more than pelvis to pelvis. Something that will make an impact and really make me feel because sex has made me numb.

So I plan to start my celibacy again.

Friend or Foe

People are your friends when liquor and drugs are around. Or when they want to party, but honestly how many people can you really call your friends once the high is down? How many friends are willing to accept change for the better? I can't deal with people bringing me down verbally or in situations that aren't "me" anymore. I know what's best for me and its not the bud or the hoes anymore, that worlds tainted and I'm done with that.