L.A.X

I was never a big fan of The Game, but I listened to his new album and I must say I'm impressed.

Obama '08

This had me teary eyed. Especially when he touched the topic of affording college. I think it is time for change. "We Don't need four more of the last eight years"


OBAAAAAAAAAAAMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Never Ending Story

I know you've heard it before, "people don't change unless they want to change". It's the damn truth, I have to come to terms with that. No matter how loud you yell, how many times you threaten to break up with someone, no matter how many times they say they're going to change. The fact is your mouth isn't strong enough to make them move. If someone keeps constantly doing the same shit, it should be a sign for most to leave...but it's not for me. And that's my problem.

I've changed my life, at first I thought it was for the better. No more drugs and liquor to stir my mind away from reality. But I've become someone I used to be. Someone I thought would never come back. The girl who has everything going for her but can't seem to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I can't blame anyone but myself. I've pushed my friends away, I don't even know who they are anymore. The last of their words strike me like a flame, a constant reminder that I fucked up.

It's hard for me to even write this. I'm fighting the truth with what I want it to be, and not taking it for what it is. I'll get back to you on this one.

What Happened To Acting Like A Lady?

I'm tired of females saying they don't associate with other females. Posting things like "Fuck Bitches" BITCH, you are a BITCH. Women need to stop the negativity towards other females. I had my moment, It's not easy to have female relationships but it's not impossible you just need to associate with the right people. Not these childish females, trying to feed off who the next person they are going to "wash". Men are just as grimy as females. So for a female to say they only associate with guys, is stupid. For females to bring other females down, thats a fucking joke. Don't you realize that there are a shitload of men who love to do just that. (I'm not down talking men either). You expect to live your lives around males forever? Your not one, and acting like a male is not cute nor a better way to live or act. What ever happened to just acting like a lady? Females trying to grab their crotch in pictures when theres no dick there or talk about snuffing guys, GOD!

ACT LIKE A LADY, YOUR NOT A MAN.

"Are You Fucking Kidding Me?"

This disgusts me. How can someone say Hitler was a great man who did great things. Hitler wanted to exterminate practically EVERYONE, including black people. He was a racist and hypocrite, like the man in the video. One of the most ignorant things I've watched in a while.

How stupid is this man?

Celibacy

I'm tired of sex, Honestly it complicates everything. I had previously stopped having sex for a while because I was misconstruing love with the physical aspect of sex. Having sex with someone doesn't mean you love them more or less. I'm tired of sex, don't get me wrong...it's fun, you catch a great feeling for the time. But what do I gain after sex? Not a damn thing. If anything sex won't bring me closer to a person. It doesn't separate any of my relationships past or present. I need more than pelvis to pelvis. Something that will make an impact and really make me feel because sex has made me numb.

So I plan to start my celibacy again.

Friend or Foe

People are your friends when liquor and drugs are around. Or when they want to party, but honestly how many people can you really call your friends once the high is down? How many friends are willing to accept change for the better? I can't deal with people bringing me down verbally or in situations that aren't "me" anymore. I know what's best for me and its not the bud or the hoes anymore, that worlds tainted and I'm done with that.

Lieing Part 1

I hate it when people lie in general, I give props to the person who tells me shit that I don't want to hear. Not the person who lies about what color draws they had on this morning.

Temptation is Tempting?

Theres nothing better than not giving into temptation. Especially when your in a relationship. I was talking to my homeboy yesterday. He was like "You know, Since I've been in a relationship girls are throwin' the pussy at me all of a sudden". Isn't that the truth though? When your single no one wants you, when your in a relationship suddenly your everyone's new found attraction. It's sad, but in my opinion knowing that your a faithful person is a lot better than the feeling after you cheat.

Cookie Jar

Never was a real big fan of Gym Class Heroes but this song is very interesting.

Keep The Past In The Past

I always told myself I'd never put myself in a situation similar to what I was in 2 years ago. The other night I did. I faced someone who I thought I'd never see again in my life. Someone who put me through too much pain at such a young age. I knew what I was doing. I don't know why I felt the need to fuck with fate. I had no business going back there and I did. The bruises faded, but it seems the scars are still a part of me. I don't know why, my life seems perfect. My current boyfriend treats me better than he did on his worst day but I find myself still hurting, screaming on the inside and no one bothers to give a fuck. So why do I? I'm trying to love someone and I don't know how because of him... because back then love was a lie, so how can I find truth? I have no trust in anyone. But I need to learn how to keep the past in the past or how else am I going to build a future?

"I love you more than yesterday"

I hate that saying. It's supposed to make you feel like your growing a stronger connection with the other person. But in my opinion it only makes me wonder about yesterday and the day before.
How much more do you love me than yesterday? And what about today? Should tomorrow be any different. I think when you love someone, you love them. It shouldn't be more or less than that.

Sugar and Spice

So the movie Sugar and Spice, is old. But I watched it again the other night and there's a funny line
that kind of stuck on me.

"The Beatles were wrong! Love isn't all you need. Love won't buy my baby diapers, love won't buy groceries and love sure as hell won't buy my new jeans after i lose my baby weight. Soon I'll just be some fatass sitting on the couch wearing chick jeans."

Now it's funny, but it made me think. Does love just drain a person or can love conquer all?

Fuck It Part 1

Fuck the the rappers who don't portray women as beautiful, but as disposable toys. Fuck the government, this isn't land of the free we don't even have freedom of speech. Fuck the 500 year head start, minorities will never be dominant as long as theres a white president. Fuck the people who ever turned me down from a job, and no I won't use my tits to get ahead. Fuck you. Fuck the media as a whole, what you see isn't reality tv. Fuck the police, their badge is not of honor, but more like deceit. Fuck double standards.


Part 1

Vows

What is it that keeps two people together forever? I always questioned what it was that gave people the strength to stick together good day, bad day, in sickness and health and all that good stuff.

These days, people don't meet the "love of their lives" young anymore. Back in the day, girls got married as young as 17 and it was normal, These days at 17 its all about sex, what's love?

Chivalry is dead, guys as a whole don't respect women as they used to. And most women no longer have respect for themselves.

Thank the media for that.



Use your mental, Stop the physical.